February is such a short month. A few less days and all of a sudden all my goals feel rushed and time just zooms by. Rather than picking goals this month I just picked a word.
I need to be more consistent in what I am doing. This isn’t a total weight loss goal either. Being consistent will help me in a lot of different areas of my life. Keeping in touch with friends I don’t get to see very often, or even just telling the people that I love that I love them. I brush my teeth twice a day and I need to apply that kind of habitual consistence to everything in my life. I am a creature of habit. Choosing to eat fruits and vegetables over chips is a habit. Waking up and going for a run or stretching out my muscles is a habit. A habit can not be formed over night. Most people suggest that it can take up to three weeks to break an old habit and for a new one. Being consistent will help me achieve my goals in the long run.
I have a very demanding personality style. I want to achieve the world and I want it right this minute. I need to learn that good things can take time and that a little effort and patience will make the outcome much more satisfying. Eating healthier and making better choices is a commitent to loving myself again. I have a desire to see my body be transformed and become the runner/mother/best friend/sister that it can be. Loosing the weight in my journey is really a bonus. If I could be healthy and live long in the body I do I would be content with it. Such is not the case.
In August of 2010 I was told my blood pressure was high. It was very high, If I remember correctly it was 170/120. This puts me at risk for heart disease, hypertension and stroke. I was devasted. The obvious choice was to put my on blood pressure medication and start on the path of a healthy life style. Even just loosing ten percent of your weight can make an enormous improvement to your blood pressure. I was stubborn, I didn’t want to be on blood pressure meds, and mostly I didn’t want to admit that I needed help. Coming face to face with how unhealthy my actions were was frightening. It was no longer an extra beer or two here. I was unhealthy, and on a rapid decline to hurting my body. I decided in August to not take the meds ( against my doctors adivce) and thought that this would be the time that I would finally get healthy. This would be the time that I would change my entire lifestyle. I tried, I did a complete 360 overnight. The first few days went extremely well and then my cravings kicked in. My emotional desire to eat kicked in. I find comfort in food and without it I didn’t know where to turn. It is surprisingly easy to ignore your blood pressure when you cant feel the effects. I felt normal.
Two weeks ago I went back to the doctor to see how everything was. I wasn’t feeling great. I had been having reoccurring migraines that was making it near impossible to function. It came the time to take my blood pressure and unsurprisingly it had gone up. I sat in my doctors office with tears streaming down my face, mostly out of disappoint with myself. I had a chance to make everything better and I neglected it. My inconsistence had left me with an even worse blood pressure and a higher chance of a stroke. Luckily my doctor didn’t ignore my tears. He looked my straight in the eye and told me what I needed to hear. Taking chances with my health isn’t worth the gamble. He told me he knew I could loose the weight myself but he didn’t want to see my hurt myself or damage my body trying to do it. We talked about the blood pressure medication again and he left it in my court. He gave me holistic options and he also gave me a prescription for blood pressure medication. I took a few days to think about what I should do. I needed to get over the stigma of being on blood pressure medication at twenty-two years old.
I know that I can achieve health and weight loss with consistency. Making healthy choices over and occur again will help me form the habit. Loosing just ten percent of my weight will help my eliminate the need for any type of blood pressure medication. Until then, I want to make sure I don’t dig an early grave. I cut out added salt and have been constantly eating foods without labels. I have been working out a few times a week and actively working on moving more. I wake up in the morning and take a little brown pill and it inspires me to keep going. This month is the month I will start being consistent. Making better choices will enable me to be the best person I can be. I want to know that person.
I encourage you all to pick one thing and be consistent with it this month. It can be as small as washing your make-up off before bed ( which I need to do more often!) or as life altering as changing everything. Pick something and start with it. 2011 is the year to kick some serious ass. Wake up in the morning and have a glass of water, get your but in gear 5 or 6 days a week and have some fresh veggies for a snack. Little differences add up to big changes. This month I will be focusing on keeping salt out of my diet, eating foods that have no labels, limiting my meat intake, taking my make-up off before bed, and just being happy with who I am. Be consistent and love yourself. I try and find something to praise my body for everyday, even if it’s just the will to keep on trying.