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Horribly Embarrassing

I was eating breakfast this morning and I came to the realization that I have never done any before pictures on this blog.  How can you guys know how horrifically over weight I am if I do not have any embarrassing before photos.  I want a record of my journey and photos of my body are definitely the best way to do that. I am not planning on doing photo updates all the time, but with every milestone goal I will update and let you know how everything has been going.  I am hoping that posting these photos will add an extra element of accountability to my journey, and will help me put down the bag of Doritos and maybe go for a jog.  I am excited to see my progress, and I hope you are all excited as well.

As you can see, my photos are not the greatest hear.  My mirror is dirty ( time to clean it right now) but this photo serves a purpose.  This is the fattest I will ever be.

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Culturally Obsessed

Skinny is such a disgusting word. Skinny is never a compliment. Skinny allows your bones to jut out. Skinny enables people to talk shit behind your back. Skinny is the same thing as fat. Both words seep into you and do there very best to wreck your self esteem and let the tears stream down your face. I’ve never been a skinny girl. I’ve been athletic, normal, chubby. Mostly I’ve been obese.

Obesity is incredibly difficult. I’d like to be able to sink into myself when I’m leered at the shopping mall. I can only imagine skinny people feel the same way. I’ve cried in a fitting room of a retail store because nothing fits, and I can imagine skinny people have as well. I have many friends who are gorgeous people. People who laugh from the deepest parts of there belly. I have seen how the word skinny affects these people. How they work so incredibly hard to gain or maintain a weight.

Picking apart someone is never the answer, and yet as a society it has become acceptable. I hate the fact that I work my ass off eating right and exercising and I’m still just the fat girl. I wish that I could allow people to see a day in my life, but at the same time they shouldn’t have the right. I should be proud of my journey and excited for what is to come.

As a whole we need to stand behind our own voice. Fat, skinny or “normal” we should all feel comfortable being in our own skin. I want to be in a culture that promotes individuality and celebrates how unique people are. Fat or skinny doesn’t matter. Healthy and happy should be our priority. I am proud to be finding myself. My journey is unique, and that’s what makes me who I am. Let’s change this fat culture, starting with looking past a persons’ size. See their smile, listen to what they have to say and enjoy them for who they are. Not what they look like.

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