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Study Bug

Today has been filled with study.

Boring study.

Interesting study.

All study.

Sadly it doesn’t leave me with very interesting material to talk about. I am trying to keep as far ahead as I possibly can. Finals always seem to suddenly appear and I want to be confident in my ability heading into them. My diet has been well, not perfect but certainly healthier. I am starting to crave fresh foods. Indulgences become less and less frequent. Eventually healthy will feel normal for me. I am still missing Eric like crazy, and honestly studying helps keep my mind off him being gone. So does dinner with friends and long walks with my dog. I don’t work this weekend so I am going to try and get back into the kitchen and cook something new. Maybe I will finally use that Jillian Michaels Yoga DVD I  bought many months ago. Life is just full of surprises.

Now back to studying. Happy (almost) Friday everyone!

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Skipping Class.

Today was a sleep in and don’t go to school kind of day. Not the best for a Monday but the extra few hours of sleep felt divine. I woke up this morning and was starved so I immediately made some turkey bacon and a scrambled egg. This meal was a little lack lustre. Is turkey bacon really that much better for you then real bacon? The ingredient list is long, the sodium is really high and it is just not satisfying. I think I am going to go back to keeping real bacon on the menu but only as a once in a while type food.

One of the benefits of skipping class is staying home and doing school work in your pyjamas. Nothing better than a big cup of coffee and being curled up on the couch with my laptop. It is pretty much right back into study mode as I have another midterm at the end of the next week and a paper due shortly after that. Summer can not happen soon enough!

This weekend was pretty low key. In my psych class we have a certain amount of research participation that we have to do, so Saturday morning was dedicated to a few hours of that. It was quite a simple project but a bit on the tedious side. As a benefit I got paid $4 to be there so it wasn’t all bad.

The best part of the weekend was a surprise tweet from Eric!

We email back and forth but any extra chat time is always welcome. He is still gone for another few weeks! Sunday was an early lunch with an old friend and then the best nap I have ever had. It was hard trying to get out of bed and be productive after that nap.

Today is all about one choice at a time. Healthy eating is not natural for me yet so I am finding I really have to be proactive and make every decision count. It pretty much comes down to not allowing myself to make excuses. My goal this week is to journal all my meals and how my emotional state is when I eat something. All to often I eat because I am bored, tired, sad etc. I want to start being more mindful of the reasons I eat or overeat. Hopefully it will set me up for success down the road. Hope everyone is having a good Monday!

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Weekend Words

 

Any time my morning starts with a big iced americano it is a good one. Even better if I splash in some soy milk and have something to eat for breakfast with it as well.  The weekend is upon us and I can’t wait.  Midterms start on Monday and even though I am nervous I am actually looking forward to a weekend of studying and cramming for my exams. The cherry on this weekend would be taking a long walk and waking up Monday feeling refreshed. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

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All Work and No Play

With school back in session my brain is totally focused on social sciences. Sounds pretty lame eh? It mostly is.  No real complaints though, I just like to hear myself bitch.

             Facebook is pulled up on my laptop like normal.

               Life is good.

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Back To Reality.

Now that the holidays are over and life is getting back to normal I should  probably get back on some sort of routine. Sleeping in and enjoying time away from work and school has been really nice but it is certainly time to get some semblance of normal back . School starts again January 9th and I am really looking forward to classes.  Last semester showed me where I excel and where I need work ( otherwise known as getting my ass out of bed and to class on time).

With that being said I am so excited about the new year. It sounds very cliche for me to talk about January being a clean slate and a fresh start but it just feels like it is this year. My relationship with Eric is getting stronger, friendships are more meaningful and I am learning how to make better, more mindful choices for health and exercise.  I was talking to Natasha earlier today over breakfast ( pancakes for the win) and I was telling her how frustrated I was that I haven’t already lost 50 lbs. In my mind eating healthy for 5 days should equal 50 lbs of weight loss.  We all know its not actually that easy to lose the weight, but it just shows how impatient I can be. Part of respecting my body this year is all about patience. I need to let these healthy changes add up. Eventually the weight will come off, my cardio will be improved and I will be able to fit into my skinny jeans.

 

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Exams are Finally Done!

Tests are finally done, and as of right now the only thing I really have to worry about is a couple of shifts at work. Christmas is only a few short days away and I can’t even believe the end of the year is so close. I have very mixed feelings about 2011 ( mostly that it sucked) but if I take an honest look back, there were some pretty good moments ( which I will recap in a later post)

Eating healthy has been kicking my ass over the last two weeks.  I am still trying to follow my new set of rules, yet chocolate and chips are still sneaking there way in there.  Everyone can make a thousand different excuses, and I am no different.  Over the last few days I have used test stress, lack of time and the old “we have nothing to eat in this house” excuse.  The only person I am trying to fool is myself, my waistline knows the truth.  I am trying to reserve the indulgence for holiday treats. Chips and candy are available year round, but a big turkey meal and freshly baked pie is not. Christmas will not be the start of a bad eating year for me. Breaking everything down to just one choice at a time really helps me with healthier choices and eventually I will get to be where I want to be.

I have been trying to include a big smoothie in my meals everyday. They are filled with fruit, spinach and dairy  and usually replace either my breakfast or my dinner.  Nothing makes me feel better than a straight shot of vitamins.

This time of year tends to be really stressful. From trying to find the right gifts for people to trying to find time for everyone in your life it can get a little bit hectic. There are only 11 days left of this year and I am going to make those days count.

 

How do you battle the holiday bulge?

Are the holiday’s a stressful time for you?

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What I Love [and Hate] About University

Making the decision to go to university was huge for me. After highschool I waited 5 whole years to decide what to do and where to do it at. I always knew I wanted to go to school, but when I left highschool the timing just didn’t feel right. Drinking and partying was priority, not introductory calculus.

Now that I’m finally enrolled in university and attending (almost) everyday there are certainly things I love about it, plus some things that drive me crazy.

What I love about University

1. Being in class with people who want to be in class – In primary education everyone is forced to go, but in university it’s vastly different. You end up paying big bucks to get the education you need to further your career. I love having intellectual discussions with people who are passionate about the field they are in. I look forward to being challenged by my professors as well as my fellow peers.

2. I love all the people – Thirty thousand people is nothing to laugh at and even though I went to a big highschool (my graduating class was 650+) I was in a pretty small town. Now Edmonton isn’t a huge city but there are so many different cultures and people at the U of A. I love meeting new people and university has allowed me to meet so many new friends that I would of normally never met.

3. Campus is gorgeous – The U of A’s campus is huge, over 50 city blocks, and all of the buildings have so much character. From the gigantic old oak trees to the stunning detail in the buildings there is always something pretty to look at. Even the newer buildings are intriguing. I love how colorful everything is. They really make it a very welcoming place to be.

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What I don’t like about University

1. People who talk in class – Being in my first year means I’m often in huge lecture halls with kids 5 years younger than me. It really drives me crazy when the people sitting in front of me chat the entire class. I’m not a prude and a lot of times I can ignore it but if your class is entirely lecture based I kind of want to pay attention. I could care less who fucked who in a dorm room.

2. The food – This hasn’t affected me so much yet, but when the time comes that I’m on campus for 6 or 7 hours at a time there really isn’t a ton of healthy options to pick from for meals. I know the university is trying to get better, but sometimes it is nice to have more variety than Subway.

Overall I love going to class and feeling like I’m working towards something. My mind needed to be stimulated and going to university just feels right. I’m glad I waited until I was a little bit older to go to class, or I would of been the person fucking in the dorm rooms. and feeling like I’m working towards something. My mind needed to be stimulated and going to university just feels right. I’m glad I waited until I was a little bit older to go to class, or I would of been the person fucking in the dorm rooms.

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Fatty Goes To School

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Being in university has taught me one thing – that I’m fat.

I attend a university of 30k+ people and I feel like the only fatty there! The desks are uncomfortable, I never have any leg room and everyone I meet seems to be in prime physical condition. I know that I’ve gained weight since I was last in school but it almost went unnoticed. I never realized how unhealthy I had become.

Over the last year or so of this blog I have certainly made progression in the way I eat. I usually choose healthy and wholesome options for meals and snacks. I try to avoid overly processed foods and fast food pit stops. Even though ive made a lot of prgress, when I’m craving something I still cave in.

My biggest downfall is the EXCUSES I make for myself. I need to be accountable to my health. Everything I have done has been little steps but I need to start making big strides.

I’ve decided to change the path I’m on. Starting with yoga. Starting September 19th I signed up and paid for a weekly class of yoga. Even just having one planned class a week helps keep myself accountable.

I want to start going to the gym on the days when I’m done school and don’t have to run off to work. Even though I can already tell working as much as I do and going to school full time will feel stressful, I know from personal experience that carving out an hour or two a few days of week for me time will be good. Exercise is a great stress reliever. That’s exactly what I need.

One of the hardest things I will have to keep accountable with is fast food. Waking up at 5 am to head out to class tends to make me feel overwhelmed. I often skip breakfast which leaves me ravished. University campus is a breeding ground for bad food choices. Everywhere you look there is a burger/coffee/sandwich shop. Even if I avoid the temptation of the solid food there will always be a coffee. I’m going to buy a prepaid coffee card and once it’s gone for the the month it’s gone.

I am hoping to keep motivated and stay healthy. I know how to eat healthy I just need to do it. As long as I can make good food choices, keep portion sizes in mind and get more excercise I will be successful.

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Loosing Myself

I’m down. I haven’t fallen. I’m not depressed. I’m just blah. I don’t know what’s gotten up with me but I just need some sort of pick me up. There is no reason why I should be in a funk. I have a wonderful boyfriend, a great group of friends, and I start university in a few short months.

I think the hardest thing about trying to change everything is taking the first step. Being the worlds greatest procrastinator doesn’t seem to help me better myself. Loosing weight has been pushed to the back burner. I’m having a hard time sleeping at night and with barely any energy for the day the last thing I want to do is hop on the treadmill and lay down a few miles. The month started out well. I was getting up in the morning and going into the gym. I was eating great and getting my 8 hours of sleep every night.

I need to make some changes. This last week has been full of all kinds of ways to help me sleep better and get my head back on straight.

1. I gave up coffee after 12:00pm. I have my coffee in the morning and hope for the best. Caffeine is the one thing my body freaks out over. If I don’t get any coffee in my system my body starts to pace. There is this all to familiar pounding headache that starts in the back of my head and makes it’s way to behind my eyes. I hate you coffee headache. Cutting out coffee has not helped me sleep one bit.

2. If you ever google how to fall asleep the Internet tells you to unplug and wind down. I turn the iPhone off, shut down the computer and read. Reading is a great way to fall asleep unless you get totally into a book and can’t put it down. Pretty much all of my books are finished at 2AM. Unplugging doesn’t work. I swear Angry Birds makes me sleepy.

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What else should I do? I don’t want to medicate to sleep. I know I’m stressed. Between work, planning my future and trying to lead a healthier life I don’t know how to prioritize. I don’t know what my future work life will be like. I’m nervous about fitting in at school. What if I’m taking the wrong program? Everything seems like it should be easy. I remind myself everyday that life has a way of working itself out. Sometimes I need to let go and just see what happens.

Tomorrow is always a new day. I’m looking forward to giving it my all. A little bit of yoga for calming and maybe a smoothie for some vitamins. I’ll find my zest again. It’s just a matter of time.

What do you do when you don’t feel like yourself?

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