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Jan 30 2013
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2013, Confession, Healthy, Weight Loss

Accepting the Truth, Pushing Forward

Sometimes you need to accept who you are and where you are at.

I’m fat. I know it. I can look in the mirror and see it. I feel my cheeks flush and my breathe quicken at easy tasks. Seeing that I’m fat is the easy part.

For so long I have ignored the consequences of being overweight. I pretend that heart disease and stroke isn’t a possibility. I pretend that I’m not shortening my life and keeping myself from truly enjoying myself. It’s hard to admit when you need help. It seems almost impossible some days.

Taking the steps to get my blood pressure under control, making sure my cholesterol is under control and ensuring that I don’t become diabetic is important to me. I’m finally willing to admit that I need help. Do I want to be taking blood pressure medication at 24 years old? Well, no, but I also don’t want to have a heart attack. Today it’s a matter of sucking up my pride, admitting that I need help and getting on a healthy path that gets me there.

Losing the weight isn’t going to be easy. To tell you the truth though, being overweight isn’t all that easy either. I’m making a commitment to fight for my body and my health. Some days are going to suck, some days are going to be awesome. I want to push my body and find out what I’m actually capable of. There isn’t any more time for the what ifs. It starts now.

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May 25 2012
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25 LBS, Everyday, Motivation, Weight Loss

How Sweet Life Is

Life has been pretty great lately. Normally I am one to look for the positive side of things but the last few weeks I have really made an effort to do what makes me happy. The nice thing about happiness is how simple it is. Sometimes happiness is an extra ten minutes of sleep or turning down going out one night. Sometimes its putting on my nicest shoes and hitting the town for a few drinks, sometimes it is just a matter of being content. Life has a funny way of working itself out and lately I have been incredibly relaxed. Making myself a priority has certainly made me a happier healthier person.

Last Sunday I weighed in and I hit my first mini goal! I was officially down 25lbs ( I have lost a few more since then) and it honestly couldn’t feel greater. I haven’t noticed a huge difference in my body yet but my energy has skyrocketed. It is easier to get out of bed in the morning and I have energy throughout the whole day. Everyone always asks how I have been losing the weight and honestly there is no magic trick. You all know that. Nothing but healthy choices and hard work make weight loss possible. I have my moments of weakness just like everyone else but at the end of the day you just need to remember whats important to you. Turning down a cookie has never hurt anyone (at least I hope it hasn’t).

My next goal is the 50lb gone mark and I am well on my way to getting there. I really want to focus on getting into the gym more consistently than I am.  Keeping my body moving is a big part of having a healthy maintainable weight loss and as I lose the weight and work on my body things like running or yoga get easier and easier to do.

 

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Mar 08 2011
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Weight Loss

Struggling Feels Good

I would love to be one of those people that everything they do just seems to happen with such ease. The kind of person who is perky in the morning. As your sleeping walking to the coffee pot they have already ran 5 miles, done the laundry and have dinner picked out. I want those last ten (or 100) pounds to fall off with only having to just watch what I eat. Maybe go for a run in the morning or do 20 minutes of aerobics. Mostly I’m jealous. I struggle. Weight loss has never been easy, and to be honest I don’t know if I’d have it any other way.

The burn from a good hard workout is satisfying. There have definitely been days where I want the big juicy burger or an extra 2 slices of pizza. I just have to step back and remember why I’m on this life changing journey. It’s all about me.

No one told me I had to loose weight. No one has to deal with the feeling of being overweight. I hated being out of breathe climbing up the stairs. Not being able to keep up with friends and family is my motivation to loose the weight and finally gain my health back. There was no worse feeling than being the fat guy. It’s totally deflating.

It is a constant struggle to change my entire lifestyle. I don’t like when people sugar coat the weight loss journey. It’s hard. If it was easy no one would be big. Learning how to change my eating patterns and exercise habits has been hard. I crave sugar fatty foods. Training my taste buds to like different styles of food has been interesting. I’m lucky to not be a picky eater or else I honestly don’t know what I would do.

I feel proud of my struggle. I still have my good days and my bad days. I probably sleep in or skip a work out more often then I would like to admit but at the end of the day I feel proud of slowly changing. My process has been slow and full of curve balls and I don’t mind. This time around, I don’t despise the struggle.

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Feb 28 2011
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Everyday, Family

Mom, Just Ask

My Mom has a bad habit.

 

Well, She probably has many bad habits, but there is one thing she does that seems to always make me feel two inches tall.  I am 100 percent positive that she doesn’t know that she is even doing it.  Whenever we are all eating together she will offer food to everyone but me.  Everyone gets the garlic toast except me. Everyone gets the birthday cake except me.  Sprinkle of cheese on top of my spaghetti? It’s not happening unless I get it myself.  This probably sounds outrageous to even be complaining about.  I know I am currently the fat girl in the room.  I know that I have to loose weight, and I am aware that I am slowly doing so.  It hurts when she skims over me, when all it would take is three seconds to ask me and see what I want to do.  I know my mom loves me, and wants nothing but the best for me but she just does not trust me around food.  I never have the choice to say no.  Being the adult that I am allows to me to be fully capable of making my own decision.  Maybe I have only eaten 600 calories and want the rest of my day to be consumed by birthday cake.  Maybe I have eaten perfectly healthy all day and would like to indulge with an extra cookie. Maybe I just don’t want to be the obvious elephant in the room and not get asked.  Subconsciously she is looking out for me, and I do appreciate it, but I am sick of being the literal elephant in the room. She needs to be able to trust my decision making ability.  I think part of her feels guilty for letting me get fat, although my weigh issues have nothing to do with her.  As a parent she did the best she could. It’s pretty hard to fight with a child over a cookie.  It is even more ridiculous when I get upset about this as an adult.  I can’t help it.

 

Mom, next time just ask me, you might be surprised by what I have to say.

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